Last Monday I had the amazing privilege of going to Kingdom Bound to hear (and see) Nick Vujicic speak. Nick’s ministry is Life Without Limbs and his testimony is incredibly inspirational.
Most of you know from previous posts that I live with chronic pain due to nerve damage from polypropylene mesh and surgeries. I’ve lived with it for a little over a year and a half now and it’s not likely to be going away any time soon. No, it’s never easy. Yes, I struggle with it – a lot. Day in and day out I have asked myself the Big Why’s.
Why won’t God heal me?
Honestly, you’d think that I’d have come to terms with all this and “just accepted” that things are the way they are quite a while ago. But humans are curious creatures with an insatiable desire to know. Oh I had ideas for why. Too many, perhaps.
“God is punishing me.”
“God is having me learn something.”
“God is teaching me patience.”
“God wants others to learn from what I’m going through.”
“Maybe there is a factor to the faith-healing crap after all.”
And many more.
Nick’s message at Kingdom Bound helped me understand why.
If you don’t know him, Nick was born without arms or legs. Listen to his testimony:
Jesus answered, “It was not that this man sinned, or his parents, but that the works of God might be displayed in him.
What is this?! my heart shouted while listening to Nick. Suddenly, after reading and hearing that story all my life it hit me then. THIS is the reason for it all. THIS is WHY!
But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.
I didn’t even try to stop the tears.